So with the prospect of graduating and getting jobs, the state likeliest to hire us is on a very dramatic downward spiral. Its painful, and yet, I still dislike said state, and see its lifestyle as the very poison polluting the economy.
Thats right, California, I blame you. And yet someday I have to live there... Its a very bittersweet prospect, and I kinda hope that this crisis will move big companies to safer states and thus end my possible venture to that state.
For said crisis info check out NPR's website here. Can you imagine the very idea of Washington bailing out a state? It makes me shudder...
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Epiphany
Tell tale signs of my writing passion are returning. The second thoughts and third thoughts about the second thoughts. It is returning. And with it an epiphany. What is really dampening the creative flow for me? Am I being spread to thin? Am I channeling my creativity in too many directions?
And it hit me. Facebook, msn and other social networking. The constant being connected is taking its toll. Last semester I read an critical theory article on the topic, and feeling I had no time I skimmed through. By skimming I missed an important point, I was not taking it all in, rather I had already decided with how busy I am this article was no different and deserved no more attention.
But the truth? With all this time I have there are one of three new options, walking, timekillers such as Facebook and other social networking or watching a show. The isolation of walking is allowing me to rejuvenate what talent for writing I had. And watching TV pacifies me for a time and does not allow me to delve into my own thoughts. Rather it forces upon me new thoughts that are not quite my own. The social networking purges all my thoughts as I am constantly sharing them and forgetting ideas as they are fleeting the screen before my eyes.
Its ironic really, this constant interconnectedness, and all the conflicting theories; one telling us that we aren't social enough and another telling us we are never quite by ourselves. Either extreme seems to leave an unbalanced lifestyle.
I think its silly when I am chastened for not telling someone about an item. Its funny that people expect always to be connected. Well how can someone be happy? My solution, walking.
And so to a happy walking filled isolation, here's to you and hopefully a renewal of the writer I once was.
And it hit me. Facebook, msn and other social networking. The constant being connected is taking its toll. Last semester I read an critical theory article on the topic, and feeling I had no time I skimmed through. By skimming I missed an important point, I was not taking it all in, rather I had already decided with how busy I am this article was no different and deserved no more attention.
But the truth? With all this time I have there are one of three new options, walking, timekillers such as Facebook and other social networking or watching a show. The isolation of walking is allowing me to rejuvenate what talent for writing I had. And watching TV pacifies me for a time and does not allow me to delve into my own thoughts. Rather it forces upon me new thoughts that are not quite my own. The social networking purges all my thoughts as I am constantly sharing them and forgetting ideas as they are fleeting the screen before my eyes.
Its ironic really, this constant interconnectedness, and all the conflicting theories; one telling us that we aren't social enough and another telling us we are never quite by ourselves. Either extreme seems to leave an unbalanced lifestyle.
I think its silly when I am chastened for not telling someone about an item. Its funny that people expect always to be connected. Well how can someone be happy? My solution, walking.
And so to a happy walking filled isolation, here's to you and hopefully a renewal of the writer I once was.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Musings on Star Trek
Girl 1: Look at all those people waiting to see Star Trek
Girl 2: Yeah thats so lame. Star Trek sucks.
Said as they walked back into the Star Trek Movie...
Talk about hypocritical!
So my point? Well what is this new movie going to do for Trekkies, and the answer is nothing. It was just as great as the others with much better graphics and better film quality. The only change is new people might be converted and thats always a good thing.
Case in point, Serenity, more people including myself watched the Firefly TV series after seeing the movie. It was a cultist boon for sci fi lovers and in select cities there is a Browncoat day, where every year they show Serenity.
So for people who call it cheesy, hokey and corny, isn't that the majority of TV in general just dressed up as pop culture? Probably with worse screenwriting and yet that's better because its whats accepted by the majority, No thanks, I'd rather have philosophical questions asked with disconcerting answers.
Anyway for all those who see it, I hope you enjoy it.
So it was very much so Trekkie style just amped up with special affects and better filming that wasn't available in the 60's. Its just not the degradation. It was awesome because J. J. Abrams has worked with it, and perhaps now a new cultist group of fans can potentially happen.
I just think people who have criticized Star Trek won't really able to criticize the new movie like they have the past ones. It was trekky goodness through and through, I just don't think people who aren't trekkies will be bugged or recognize that.be able to criticize the new movie like they have the past ones.
It was trekky goodness through and through, I just don’t think people who aren’t trekkies will be bugged or recognize that.
Girl 2: Yeah thats so lame. Star Trek sucks.
Said as they walked back into the Star Trek Movie...
Talk about hypocritical!
So my point? Well what is this new movie going to do for Trekkies, and the answer is nothing. It was just as great as the others with much better graphics and better film quality. The only change is new people might be converted and thats always a good thing.
Case in point, Serenity, more people including myself watched the Firefly TV series after seeing the movie. It was a cultist boon for sci fi lovers and in select cities there is a Browncoat day, where every year they show Serenity.
So for people who call it cheesy, hokey and corny, isn't that the majority of TV in general just dressed up as pop culture? Probably with worse screenwriting and yet that's better because its whats accepted by the majority, No thanks, I'd rather have philosophical questions asked with disconcerting answers.
Anyway for all those who see it, I hope you enjoy it.
So it was very much so Trekkie style just amped up with special affects and better filming that wasn't available in the 60's. Its just not the degradation. It was awesome because J. J. Abrams has worked with it, and perhaps now a new cultist group of fans can potentially happen.
I just think people who have criticized Star Trek won't really able to criticize the new movie like they have the past ones. It was trekky goodness through and through, I just don't think people who aren't trekkies will be bugged or recognize that.be able to criticize the new movie like they have the past ones.
It was trekky goodness through and through, I just don’t think people who aren’t trekkies will be bugged or recognize that.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Epiphany and Nostalgia
Sitting at my desk working and something hit. Something was off and things were different from how they were a moment ago. There was a whir and a click as I remembered such changes from my childhood. “But I am inside, there’s no way that I could sense something like that in a building. I looked out the window and saw a rainy evening, but something tasted different. Something was letting me get so close to figuring out this mystery of what it was, only to take it away a moment later. And then finally it hit me. The atmosphere was electric with change. Perhaps just maybe Winter has had its last laugh, tormenting us with a white winter wonderland on April Fool’s day. Today is the first real day of spring.
Spring, a world electric with rebirth and second winds, a world where maybe just maybe, I will survive this semester unscathed. With a new charge and ambition lit within me perhaps Spring will bring more renewal, and new beginnings that we all can use.
Spring, a world electric with rebirth and second winds, a world where maybe just maybe, I will survive this semester unscathed. With a new charge and ambition lit within me perhaps Spring will bring more renewal, and new beginnings that we all can use.
Friday, March 13, 2009
March's List of Things That Must Go:
My list of things that must go:
- Fake people
- Social Niceties
- Chain Restaurants-I just think people should realize that each and every single time they eat at a chain that 66% of that money leaves the local community. Yes YOU are the reason why people are losing their jobs and the economy is so bad. You aren’t investing in the community you live in, stay in you suburb and stop complaining if you can’t change your oh so important life in the fast lane lifestyle.
- Bowling-shoes that are ugly, throwing a ball down a lane to hit pins and a loud atmosphere that is jarring at best. No thank you
- Tess of the D’Urbervilles, and every person in the world whose personality resembles anyone in the book
- Miniature Golf-if you are going to golf it might be real sized…. While we are at would you like a mini or teacup sized animal that lives an uncomfortable life being cute for your selfish desires
- Reality TV- the name is a conundrum, its not real. Its really stupid but that’s as close to reality as it gets. If I chose to be pacified from all of lifes troubles it might as well be unbelievably well written dialogue, and I can concede to it not being real.
- People over reacting because something in life will no longer pander to their every want and need.
- People who walk away from their mortgage
- People who won’t live within their means
- People who don’t recycle
- High speed internet that doesn’t work-makes listening to online lectures next to impossible
- 80 dollar headphones. That’s right Zagg, I think you are an idiot if you think people will spend that much on headphones when they won’t spend money on anything else.
- ProvoCraft I hate them, first of all their very name includes my 2nd most hated place in the world, the first being Disneyland, world etc… 2nd they have without a doubt the absolute worst customer service I have ever encountered!
- Ingratitude-Sure I like being nice and sharing, but if you accept it ungraciously and take advantage of the situation I have no choice but to feel misused and left cynical.
Chain Restaurants, Miniature Golf, Bowling, No Thank You
I am not a fan of the above activities, and I make no apologies to all those who enjoy them, this is just my opinion and how I feel.
There are over 100 more appealing things I would choose to do before I resorted to the above activities. They just aren’t fun for me and while I am happy for those who enjoy them, I am tired of people being so surprised that I have such disdain for them.
There are over 100 more appealing things I would choose to do before I resorted to the above activities. They just aren’t fun for me and while I am happy for those who enjoy them, I am tired of people being so surprised that I have such disdain for them.
On the Verge of Ranting
My brain is on the verge of exploding, it is so exhausted and has so much to say but it can’t. Nothing is coherently flowing, just a garbled mess of thoughts connecting from one issue to the next in a very obscure way. I’m just tired, but feel like putting together a list of both, my frustrations, happiness and the meh gray area.
This blog has been utterly unused the last little while, not that that means I’ve calmed down, hardly, it just means I’m using the passion to fire other projects.
So much so that now, when I want to have my thoughts placed in front of me, I can barely grasp what fired me up in the first place. I have been busy and I seem to still not be able to say no and continue to put to much on my plate.
Work has kept me busy, school has kept me busy, and I count every single one of my lucky stars and blessings that I am busy in both fields.
In one of my classes I’ve been reading Tess of the D’Urbervilles which is how Twilight in a real world, with better writing, would have turned out. It’s a trajedy, a very well written trajedy and only makes me more frustrated because it does take place in a time when Feminism didn’t exist. The Victorian era is an absolute conundrum to me, and I can’t believe a people could be so hoity toity. So as I continue to read this book I voice my problems and issues to Ryan while he calms me down by letting me know what really is backwards thinking and what isn’t.
For example a guy does something and expects the girl to forgive him but she has no control and something is done to her that she can’t help and he won’t forgive her. I’d like to skewer anyone who can think that this is ok and I get even angrier when this fault is why he falls in love with her in the first place.
It’s a book that makes me hate men, and women who put up with abuse and mistreatment. Not only that, but its put a fire in my belly that I haven’t been able to stop, I’m just angry this week and I do blame the book.
The professor hates the heroine and says that once people can come to terms with hating her, the book becomes much more likeable. So I very very much so hate the book, the main character, the hypocritical men and all other aspects of the book. If the book does end happily I will throw a fit. In short, I don’t think any of the men, or women in the book deserve to be happy. And if I ever encounter someone who reminds me of these characters with their many shortcomings I believe I will hate the person.
Which brings me to my next point, I’m so tired of receiving notice at big gatherings where people say they miss me so much and wish we got together more, and its because I feel, that’s right feel so you can’t disagree with my feeling, that they then put all responsibility of not seeing me on me. I can’t and won’t subscribe to that way of thinking and think its highly idiotic to tell a person that you wish you saw them more, if you don’t call, text, or e-mail them. But it gets better, if they said that once every 6 months or so I could careless but it happens EVERY time I see them, which is much more than once every 6 months.
Also, I am sick of people double booking their evenings and jumping from one event to the next. Why can’t you just pick one and genuinely enjoy being there? Perhaps we are just in very different places in life, which is ok, but I’d rather be cancelled on than have a pity visit.
I guess what it comes down to is I’m still sick of people being fake and social niceties.
Then I hate arriving somewhere and people waiting till just after I get there to take off, I’d rather be told not to go and not waste my time which is incredibly valuable to me.
I’m dizzy from this week and it doesn’t even feel like next week is spring break, I’m tired and maybe a week free from classes (but not homework) will improve my mood, but I am so tired of so called friends doing all of the above and in every sense of the word acting like the dumb characters from the book aforementioned.
Can’t I just be who I am instead of playing the social niceties game? Perhaps this is just Ryan rubbing off on me, but what a more exhilarating way to live, where I am who I am in all circles of life. This vent has been a long time coming.
This blog has been utterly unused the last little while, not that that means I’ve calmed down, hardly, it just means I’m using the passion to fire other projects.
So much so that now, when I want to have my thoughts placed in front of me, I can barely grasp what fired me up in the first place. I have been busy and I seem to still not be able to say no and continue to put to much on my plate.
Work has kept me busy, school has kept me busy, and I count every single one of my lucky stars and blessings that I am busy in both fields.
In one of my classes I’ve been reading Tess of the D’Urbervilles which is how Twilight in a real world, with better writing, would have turned out. It’s a trajedy, a very well written trajedy and only makes me more frustrated because it does take place in a time when Feminism didn’t exist. The Victorian era is an absolute conundrum to me, and I can’t believe a people could be so hoity toity. So as I continue to read this book I voice my problems and issues to Ryan while he calms me down by letting me know what really is backwards thinking and what isn’t.
For example a guy does something and expects the girl to forgive him but she has no control and something is done to her that she can’t help and he won’t forgive her. I’d like to skewer anyone who can think that this is ok and I get even angrier when this fault is why he falls in love with her in the first place.
It’s a book that makes me hate men, and women who put up with abuse and mistreatment. Not only that, but its put a fire in my belly that I haven’t been able to stop, I’m just angry this week and I do blame the book.
The professor hates the heroine and says that once people can come to terms with hating her, the book becomes much more likeable. So I very very much so hate the book, the main character, the hypocritical men and all other aspects of the book. If the book does end happily I will throw a fit. In short, I don’t think any of the men, or women in the book deserve to be happy. And if I ever encounter someone who reminds me of these characters with their many shortcomings I believe I will hate the person.
Which brings me to my next point, I’m so tired of receiving notice at big gatherings where people say they miss me so much and wish we got together more, and its because I feel, that’s right feel so you can’t disagree with my feeling, that they then put all responsibility of not seeing me on me. I can’t and won’t subscribe to that way of thinking and think its highly idiotic to tell a person that you wish you saw them more, if you don’t call, text, or e-mail them. But it gets better, if they said that once every 6 months or so I could careless but it happens EVERY time I see them, which is much more than once every 6 months.
Also, I am sick of people double booking their evenings and jumping from one event to the next. Why can’t you just pick one and genuinely enjoy being there? Perhaps we are just in very different places in life, which is ok, but I’d rather be cancelled on than have a pity visit.
I guess what it comes down to is I’m still sick of people being fake and social niceties.
Then I hate arriving somewhere and people waiting till just after I get there to take off, I’d rather be told not to go and not waste my time which is incredibly valuable to me.
I’m dizzy from this week and it doesn’t even feel like next week is spring break, I’m tired and maybe a week free from classes (but not homework) will improve my mood, but I am so tired of so called friends doing all of the above and in every sense of the word acting like the dumb characters from the book aforementioned.
Can’t I just be who I am instead of playing the social niceties game? Perhaps this is just Ryan rubbing off on me, but what a more exhilarating way to live, where I am who I am in all circles of life. This vent has been a long time coming.
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